Dead end?

Looking back at the past month or two I start to wonder if any of the effort that i did was worth it. My current life is just a sequance of similar days, my projects all halted because of lack of ideas. All hints that I'm distracted by something which won't allow me to break through that wall that I built on my path.

Life becomes just very ambiguous with every day that passes, but I still can clearly see my destination. That's one of that moments when one should take all what he has and move forward despite the blood trail that he leaves behind himself(whose blood?).

I have decided to popularize Russian preferans amoung english speakers(and to make some profit on the way). I do have some basis to start from, but I guess that more people could be just what I need.

Crossroad huh?

One day you just wake up to findout that you came to a crossroad, a crossroad with no way back. You would think that you can fix whatever you did and return to what it used to be before, but this time you don't have that option. This time it's for real, you're on your own and have to do a decision which in either case will change your life.

The real question is: "Is it as shitty as it looks?"

What do we actually fear in such situations? Do we fear that we did the biggest mistake in our life or just afraid to pull away from the things that we know, straight into the unknown, land of choices that we so fear to accept?