Dead end?

Looking back at the past month or two I start to wonder if any of the effort that i did was worth it. My current life is just a sequance of similar days, my projects all halted because of lack of ideas. All hints that I'm distracted by something which won't allow me to break through that wall that I built on my path.

Life becomes just very ambiguous with every day that passes, but I still can clearly see my destination. That's one of that moments when one should take all what he has and move forward despite the blood trail that he leaves behind himself(whose blood?).

I have decided to popularize Russian preferans amoung english speakers(and to make some profit on the way). I do have some basis to start from, but I guess that more people could be just what I need.